Walk away

i thought i was strong enough to face all expecting mothers, but in reality, i wasn't.
(ok, tolak comot tepi ok, aku jumpa hari2 kot)

in fact, i dont seems to mind seeing all my friends whom are expecting, but i am not strong enough to face her.

owh, fyi, she is my cousin (same age as mine). we are some sorts of rivals since we are toddlers. blame her mother for always comparing us. (though i always won, no matter what, but in the baby thing, i lost. completely lost. dammit!)

i cant stand looking at her baby bump let alone seeing the look in her eyes as if mocking me
"ko bile lagik? aku kawen lagik lambat dari kau da pegnent kot"

and yes, i did pretend that she did not exist and simply walk away.
(not sure if others was aware of my 'running away scheme')

dont blame me for that.

and please, dont asked me why i walked away.

i cant pretend that i am strong anymore.